I’ve been here before, I tell myself. I’ve been lonelier than this, more hopeless than this, more desperate than this. I’ve been here before and I survived. I can get through this.
No matter what happened between us, or how long its been since we last talked, I still care, I wanna know you’re doing and feeling. I don’t stalk you but just enough to know you’re okay because you’re still that person I miss and the person who will always be in my heart.
Priorities, Spoken word by Boonaa Mohammad.
What are your priorities?
Boona never fails to give me goosebumps, mA..
I spoke to my mother on the phone a few days after Amr left this world. I told her that I wished I could just die, too. As best as I had tried to be patient and to bear it, it hurt more than anything I had ever felt and those words just came out.
For a long time I replayed that conversation in my mind and felt a looming sense of guilt over what I had said, and how I wasn’t patient, and how perhaps I had failed the test that Allah had given me. And then my friend reminded me of the verse referring to the story of Maryam:
'And the pains of childbirth drove her to the trunk of a palm tree. She said, “Oh, I wish I had died before this and was in oblivion, forgotten”'(19: 23).
Allah didn’t respond to her cries by saying ‘do not wish for death’ or ‘be more patient’…rather He said, as a the most Merciful Lord seeing His beloved servant in pain: ‘Do not grieve; your Lord has provided beneath you a stream. And shake toward you the trunk of the palm tree; it will drop upon you ripe, fresh dates. So eat and drink and be contented’ (19:24-26).
How Merciful Allah is to have shown us such a human and authentic example of a woman who was in so much pain that she uttered her wish for death. And then to have also shown us how He, Subhanahu wa ta’ala, responded with assurance, mercy and love: ‘do not grieve.’
Allah (swt) created us and understands that we have great weaknesses, that we are so flawed and so imperfect. Even the greatest men and women were human, they grieved just as we do.
And so be easier on yourself, Allah understands. He wishes ease for us, He wishes to extend His Love and Mercy to us, we just have to actually wish for it, too."
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And spend in the Cause of Allah and do not throw yourselves into destruction (by not spending your wealth in the Cause of Allah), and do good. Truly, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers). [Surah Al-Baqarah 2:195]
To be a good doer, you preform good deeds without expecting any praise, but from Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala alone. By worshipping Allah in the greatest way possible, you attain the highest rank of Paradise, which is better than any fame or achievement you can recieve on Earth. He rewards the doers of good in a great way.
Surely, Allah wastes not the reward of the Muhsinun. [Surah At-Tawbah 9:120]